The murder of 17-year-old Trayvon Martin, a Florida high school student who was shot and killed by George Zimmerman, a self-appointed neighborhood watch captain, has left our country confused, hurt, angry, & divided. So what do I, as a psychic medium, think about this case? I felt compelled to write this blog because I am OUTRAGED! I know better than most people, that we are born with a plan. A plan of our life, that includes a plan of when we are to die. I do NOT feel it was Trayvon's time to die.
A neighborhood watch is supposed to be a plan of protection, not one of racism or ignorance. I feel that in this particular incident, this was NOT a case of self defense, rather a case of a person on a power trip who in an instance took the life of another human being. I do not feel the police handled this case correctly from the beginning. Mr. Zimmerman claimed self defense so they just took his word for it and did nothing? This is not the way our plan was written. This was a man who jumped to conclusions and acted out of fear and prejudice. Did he assume that because Trayvon was African American that he must be "up to no good"? Absolutely he did, but we all have heard what happens when we assume! I have expressed in this blog what I feel actually happened. Unfortunately, just me psychically knowing what happened can not bring this young man back to his family & friends. It's a sad situation. Everything in this world is planned by a power much higher than us, we are simply pawns & just like the pawns in a board game, the color of the pawn isn't supposed to have any impact on the outcome of the game, unfortunately, the plan is often skewed by ignorance. The purpose is one of peace and acceptance. Racism has never & will never be part of the agenda. That is something humans created & is just one of many things that that goes against the principles of life. Those who act out of hatred are going against the plan. The only relief I can offer is that a power much higher than us will see that justice is served, even if it isn't in this world, it will be in the next!
As a psychic medium, I get many questions from clients, friends, family, & even strangers. Most of them revolve around how this works, what I see, how I see it, and if I tell EVERYTHING. Let me start be explaining how I see. I know there are countless tv shows that depict a psychic medium actually seeing spirits. I do NOT see it like that. I'm not saying other psychic mediums are lying, that just isn't the way I see it. I "see" with my mind. In my mind I picture people, places, & things. In my mind I communicate with spirits, ghosts, and angels. I even hear and feel in my mind. It's like watching a movie in your head. When I describe what a spirit looks like, it's simply them showing me. They are actually no longer a physical body, but instead a collection of energy. Here is how I often describe it: if you wear glasses, take them off and try to see someone down the street-it's very blurry, but you may be able to figure out the general appearance... this is often how I see them in my mind. I hear their words in my head as well. Sometimes it's like they are in a tunnel far away and very muffled, other times it is clear. They do not speak in sentences, but it's more of a game. I get clues- I tell my client the clues, they have to figure out what it means. For example, I had a spirit tell me to say "cookie" by showing me an image of a cookie in my mind, I said to my client "Cookie" he's showing me a cookie, did he love cookies or something?" She instantly got excited and replied "No, his girlfriend's name is Cookie". This is one way they get me to say certain things, another way is by showing me my family members, for example if they had diabetes, they will often show me my mom, who has diabetes. Each psychic medium has certain signs and symbols, I have just learned with time & experience what some of my symbols mean. They might show me the motion of a break with their hands, sort of like if you break a wishbone, this is my symbol for divorce or someone in the family not speaking. I learn more symbols every day. I also know if the thought/sound/sensation is coming from my right side, it's a loved one, if it's on my left, it's an angel or spirit guide. I honestly have no idea why it works that way for me, it just does. I also will occasionally have a client who is unsatisfied about who shows up to communicate. They couldn't wait to speak with their mom, but she never shows, instead a great grandmother is here the entire time. I try to ask for the mom to come, but more often than not, I don't get her that time. It's not that her mom doesn't want to communicate, it's just that she's not there at the time. This is very hard for most people to understand. I don't understand it either.....I just know that I have no control over who shows up and who doesn't. I have many regular clients who meet with me on a regular basis, some of them get a different person each time, some get the same person each time. I have yet to figure out why it works this way, it just does! I also get many questions about spirits & ghosts going home with people either after a group or private session. The answer is YES, the spirits who came with you will leave with you, if they didn't come with you, they will not leave with you. Finally, I'd like to review a question that everyone is thinking, but few people actually ask out loud...Do I see the negative things and will I tell if I do. I do see some negative things, but not many. I may see that someone will have an illness or disease, be in an accident, have a fight with someone, lose their job, etc... None of these things are something I "want" to tell, but yes, I do tell everything I see unless someone instructs me otherwise. I feel that this spirit is using it's energy to tell me things for a reason and it's not my job to judge if someone can handle it, but simply to pass the message on...that's what I do. In closing, I would like to touch on one final subject that always seems to come up in questions. Do I see them everywhere, all of the time? Yes & No...I can say things to keep them away for the most part; however, if they want me to see them or to pass a message along, they will continue pestering me until I do what they want. I can usually get them to leave me alone so that I'm not seeing hundreds of spirits when simply going to the mall or attending one of my kid's school functions, but often, I'll get that "look" in my eyes and one of the kids will say..."Mom, please don't do a reading now"! I usually try to ignore it and it eventually goes away, but sometimes, I just can't help myself and approach a total stranger to tell them that their loved one is there and wants to say hello!
Last weekend I was in the Delaware area doing a group session, which went very well. At the end of the day on Saturday, feeling very tired, John and I went back to the hotel and I crashed. Doing back to back readings is physically exhausting and emotionally draining. I had hoped to go to the nearby casino that night, but was much too tired. The next morning, after checking out of the hotel, we decided to stop at the casino for a bit before beginning our 3.5 hour drive home. We typically go straight for the Roulette wheel (no my psychic abilities will not work for this, I have tried!), but they only had 2 tables open and they were packed. We walked around looking and found a Spanish21 Table with 2 seats open-perfect! We sat down and began to play. Immediately upon sitting down and handing the dealer my player card and money, I heard it. I knew I wasn't alone & thought, "Here we go again"! I clearly heard the voice in my head saying "Thelma". I tried to ignore it, it just kept repeating...."Thelma, Thelma....say it out loud, Thelma!" I knew this wasn't going to go away, spirits can be relentless. I tried saying (in my mind of course), " I'm not working right now Thelma, you need to leave!" It didn't work. Now in order to understand the next part of this story, you have to understand how this casino game works, basically, It's like regular BlackJack in most ways, but you have the chance of doing a side bet to try to "match" the dealer's card. We are now sitting there approximately 30 minutes- I have heard that name "Thelma" repeated in my head the ENTIRE time. I turn to John, my husband, and say, I'm not alone, someone named Thelma is here and she will not leave me alone, he just grinned. I explained to him that I may have to say something, being his usual supportive self, he said :if you need to say it, say it!" I then decided to reason with this spirit, I said (again in my mind), if you let me match the dealer's card, I'll ask these people if they know who you are when the dealer breaks to shuffle. The very next hand, I matched, and the one after that, then an exact match, then again....I had explained to John what my deal was, he laughed. This went on for several hands, I kept matching and we kept laughing. By now the dealer and one other player at the table asked me what we were laughing at, I said, I'll tell you when we get to the shuffle, but you'll probably all think I'm crazy. We finally get to the shuffle. The dealer and the 1 guy who were on to me asked me to tell them what's up. I said, "I am a Psychic Medium (of course, this always gets me some strange looks), I know that may sound crazy to you all, but there is a female spirit here named Thelma and she wants to talk to 1 of you"- they all look at me and then each other with a confused look on their face. There were 2 guys to my left, I had thought for sure 1 of them were going to say they knew her. There was an elderly lady on John's right and the dealer-all shaking their heads. I was so afraid this would happen-no one knows her, they think I'm crazy, then the older lady, who I can't see well because John is partially blocking her, leans over and says "WAIT A MINUTE!", then starts digging in her purse...with a look on her face like she had just seen a ghost herself, she pulls out a picture from her wallet, it's a female, imprinted in the top corner is her name "Thelma", she turns the card over to show me & everyone at the table...it's the card she picked up at Thelma's funeral. Thelma was her best friend's daughter. I explained that Thelma wanted her to relay some messages to her family- she missed them, loved them all, was at peace, etc...", the lady looks at John as if she's terrified and says "I don't think I want them to know I was at the casino gambling"! TRUE STORY!!!
I recently had a private session with a new client. We'll call her "Jane" for confidentiality purposes. She was quieter than most of my clients and came in to my office visibly shaking- she was both afraid and anxious. I opened the session as I always do, explaining the process and how spirits come through- the difference between a psychic medium & just a psychic, etc... First her grandmother came through-giving me names of people in the family and detailed info that she was shocked I knew...then a young man came through- I explained what he looked like & that he had passed much younger than her grandmother- I then gave his initials and finally his name- she was shocked and amazed, it was her brother. As he started speaking, he began apologizing...he wanted her to know that he was so sorry. He explained how he didn't live where she now does and that he had lived in a larger city, he said that he had gotten in with the wrong crowd and made some poor decisions. He then went on to say that the two of them had a lot of arguments and really didn't get along, he had been in legal trouble and had abused drugs and alcohol. He also wanted her to know that when he passed of a drug overdose, it was NOT a suicide, he began to cry (the first time I had ever seen this from a spirit), he explained that he accidentally took too many prescription pills and while he had many issues and was depressed, he did NOT kill himself. He also told her it was not a murder, but a complete accident. He repeated several times how sorry he was for what he put their family through- both while he was living and after he passed. He then told her to please tell his parents that they did the right thing in dealing with his issues by exercising tough love and alienating him. He mentioned the screaming in the home, the negative energy he created, and how much he wished he could change that. As he was fading and leaving the session, he turned and said to me "Thank you so much, I really needed to get that out, I am fine here, but couldn't truly feel at peace until I got those things off my chest and told the people I loved how sorry I was and what really happened". After the session, as "Jane" was leaving, she told me as tears welled in her eyes, how much agony the family had been through, over what caused her brother's death and the lingering questions: Did he commit suicide, was he murdered? They also worried that the tough love technique they chose to pursue with him, was the wrong one. Now she knows the truth. Of course, I have abbreviated this story for blog purposes. The reason I wanted to share this session is because I felt it was an important lesson for me. While there is no ill will or negativity and they are very happy and healthy, the process of communication with loved ones here on earth is a healing process, not only for us, but for the spirits as well. I'm not sure why I have this ability to communicate with the spirit world, but I do feel now, more than ever, it is my responsibility to help not only my clients with the grieving process, but sometimes the spirits as well. I hope that I can bring peace & comfort to not only those in this physical world, but to those that I am so blessed to be able to communicate with on the other side.